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Previous Chapter: http://upallnightprefs94.tumblr.com/post/94469239772/when-i-was-sixteen
"Shit." I mumbled as I scrolled through Twitter.
This didn’t look good. Fans of mine and of 5SOS were tweeting about Ashton and I going out to lunch. Some were happy, some weren’t. I didn’t know if I should tweet something to set the record straight or not. I mean, they might just get over things when they realize that we weren’t together.
The guys of 5SOS walked into my dressing room laughing about something. They had been watching One Direction perform while I was backstage practically freaking out.
"You did an amazing job tonight." Calum smiled as he came and sat next to me on the sofa.
"Thanks Cal." I returned the smile and looked over at Ashton. He was on his phone and I hoped that he wasn’t scrolling through Twitter. I didn’t want to be around him when he saw the tweets.
Knowing that Ashton still had feelings for me complicated things. We were bound to run into each other at events and stuff, so we had to keep things civil.
I did miss my friend though.
"Uh, (Y/n)?" Mikey waved his hand in my face. I didn’t realize that I was still staring at Ashton.
"Sorry, just zoned out there." I chuckled.
Me and Athena sat with the guys for a while as they told us hilarious stories of theirs. I was glad for the distraction.
I heard voices coming down the hallway and then the guys of One Direction walked in. I stood up when Liam walked in.
He saw me and smiled, “Did you enjoy the show?”
I nodded, “Yeah, Athena and I watched it from back here.”
Liam pulled me into his arms and I felt him kiss the top of my head lightly.
"Well, we hate to break up the party, but we have a plane to catch." Luke told all of us as they started telling us goodbye. I hugged each of them and when it came to Ashton, I got a little awkward.
"Come here." he mumbled as he wrapped his arms around me.
"I’m going to miss you." I told him.
"I am too. Don’t be a stranger." he said.
I nodded and our hug ended. He gave me a small smile before he and the other guys left.
"Will you stay on our bus tonight?" Liam asked me.
"Yeah, let me go grab my things." I told him before I kissed his cheek and left the room with Athena.
"I’m staying the night with Liam. Are you going to be okay on the bus alone?" I asked her.
"Yes, I plan on sleeping the whole ride."
"It’s only like an hour and a half." I chuckled.
"I know, but I’m exhausted."
Athena and I walked to the buses and went inside mine. I went over to one of my suitcases and grabbed a few clothes for the next day.
I told Athena goodbye and left to the guys’ bus. They still weren’t there, so I grabbed the remote and lied down on the couch. I flipped through the channels aimlessly trying to find anything to watch.
I settled on a rerun of Friends while I waited for Liam.
I knew that we needed to have a talk about the rumors. I’m sure that he had seen them by now.
I started to get sleepy, so I went over to Liam’s bunk and climbed in. I didn’t want to be passed out on the couch when the guys came in. I didn’t need any of them drawing on my face or anything.
His pillow smelled like the cologne he always wore. I loved it so much. I snuggled into his blankets and closed my eyes.
I didn’t get the chance to fall asleep. I heard the door to the bus open and voices.
"(Y/n)? Are you here?" I heard Liam call out.
I pushed back the curtain and popped my head out, “In here, babe.”
He smiled and came over and climbed into the bunk too. I made room for him. He instantly wrapped his arms around my waist.
I rested my head against his chest, listenting to his heartbeat.
"It has been a long day." He said after a small period of silence.
I nodded, “Yeah, it has. I’m just glad it is over.”
"I’m sorry about the way I was earlier about the whole Ashton thing."
I was to content in the moment to tell him about the rumors that was going on. I just wanted to be selfish and enjoy this time that I had with him.
I felt his hand rub my back soothingly and I had to fight to stay awake. Liam was just so comforting. I loved being in his presence.
"What was that, babe?" Liam asked me.
I felt embarrased. I didn’t think that I was talking out loud.
I laughed a little, “I said that I love being in your presence.” I looked up at him. I could faintly see him in the dark, but I knew that he was smiling.
Liam cupped my right cheek with his hand and I leaned into it, “I love you, (Y/n).”
I gasped lightly. Liam said what now? It took me a second before I recovered and spoke, “I love you too, Liam.”
Liam shifted under me and then I felt his lips on mine. This was what I had been missing. Love. I felt a warmth in my chest and I felt like a silly school girl with a crush, but what Liam and I had was way more than that.
He had my heart all along even when I was with Ashton, I realized that now. No matter how many times I told myself that I hated him for what he did to me, I knew deep down that he was my one true love.
I didn’t want anything to mess this up.
The next morning, I woke up alone. I was hoping that Liam would still be lying next to me when I woke up last night before I fell asleep. When he told me that he loved me, I felt like the missing puzzle piece to my life was found.
I got out of his bunk and went into the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and did my business before I went to see where everyone was.
I didn’t have to look too far. Liam was on his laptop sitting on the couch in the front of the bus. No one else was around.
"Good morning, babe." I told him.
"When were you going to tell me?" He questioned.
I knew what then that he was talking about the rumors all over Twitter.
"I didn’t think that it was a big deal." I mumbled as I looked down at my hands.
"There are thousands of people online talking about you and Ashton and you didn’t think that it was a big deal?"
"We know the truth. It doesn’t matter what anyone else says." I told him hoping that he would understand.
"It does when people are practically begging for you guys to get back together. How do you think that makes me feel? No one knows that you and I are together because you don’t want anyone to know."
"That’s because I want to keep my personal life to myself. I thought you understood that?" I asked.
"I didn’t. I just did it because it was what you wanted! I would show off to the world that you were mine again, but you won’t let me!" Liam shouted.
I didn’t want to fight with him. Not after we just said that we loved each other again.
"I just can’t do that right now, Liam." I mumbled.
Liam scoffed and closed his laptop. I couldn’t think of anything to say as he left the bus and slammed the door.
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Previous Chapter: http://upallnightprefs94.tumblr.com/post/93447465007/half-a-heart-three
"Isn’t it weird that we first met at a bar and here we are now?"
I smiled a little before I turned around. Harry had a grin on his face. He was just as gorgeous as ever.
"Yeah, it is." I laughed a little.
Harry sat down on the stool to my right. I took another sip of my beer as the bartender came over.
"What can I get you?" He asked Harry.
"I’ll have what she is having." Harry gestured to my beer. The bartender nodded and brought him a beer like mine a minute later.
"The only thing different from before is you can actually drink." Harry smirked before he drank some of his beer.
"That didn’t stop me before, Harry." I laughed. I vaguely remembered Peyton making me take a shot of tequila the night that I met Harry.
"You and Peyton were as thick as thieves."
I nodded, “I haven’t talked to her in a while though. She goes to school in the states.”
"I figured. She never seemed like the type to stay in one place."
"Yeah, she’s not boring like me." I chuckled.
"Oh (Y/n), you are far from boring." Harry teased.
I felt my cheeks heat up a little. I had to remember to keep things on a friendly level, but all of the rules were broken now. It was hard to just think that Harry and I were friends when we used to be so much more.
But, Harry was going through a divorce. He was technically still married. I wasn’t allowed to think about anything other than us being friends even though I really wanted to.
"How was Uni?" Harry asked me after a few minutes of silence.
"It was really fun. I spent most of the time in the library, but I did manage to have a complete Uni experience."
"I was hoping that you would have a good time there." Harry confessed as he looked at his beer bottle.
"Yeah, I didn’t want to be the one to ruin it." he mumbled.
I couldn’t think of anything to tell him in that moment. I felt guilt because I was the one that ended things with Harry. The secret of us being together was eating away at my soul.
I decided to change the subject, “How are the guys?”
Harry smiled a little, “They are all doing great, still crazy as ever. Zayn got married to a woman named Perrie and Louis got married to Eleanor. Liam is engaged to his long time girlfriend, Sophia and Niall is enjoying the bachelor life.”
I was glad that the majority of them found someone that they wanted to be with. I nearly laughed when I remembered how jealous Harry used to get about my friendship with Liam. Nothing ever happened. He was just a friend that was there when I would need him the most.
"How are your parents doing?" Harry asked.
I looked at my hands, “Uh, okay I guess.”
"What’s wrong?" Harry always could tell when something was wrong with me.
"It’s nothing." I mumbled.
"No, you can tell me, (Y/n)."
"They have been arguing a lot lately. I don’t know what is really going on with them. I haven’t made time to go and see them, but I think me leaving put a strain on them or something." I said.
Harry turned in his seat so his body was facing me, “Don’t make yourself feel guilty. It’s not your fault that they are having some problems.”
I shrugged my shoulders, “I just don’t want them to split up. I mean, if they can’t make it no one else could.”
Harry cleared his throat and looked away. Crap, why did we have to be talking about marriage?
"Sorry." I said when I remembered that he was getting a divorce.
"It’s fine." He muttered before drinking some more beer. I felt like I put my foot into my mouth big time.
"How is Mason?" Once again I was changing the subject.
"He is doing good. He is at his mother’s house, but I get to see him next week."
"I’m sorry about everything that you have to go through." I said sincerely.
"It’s not your fault at all, but I appreciate it." He smiled a little at me.
"I’m glad that this wasn’t awkward tonight. I was a little worried." I chuckled.
"I knew that you would be," Harry smirked, "But, we have been through too much for it to have been awkward."
I nodded, “You are right.”
The bar was starting to get a little crowded and louder. I tried not to let it bother me, but I didn’t want to get a headache from the drunk people shouting at each other.
"Do you want to get out of here?" I asked him.
"Yeah, sure." Harry stood up and I followed him out of the bar.
It felt good to be outside and breathing fresh air. I put my hands in my pockets and we stood there for a few seconds before Harry spoke, “Want to go for a walk?”
I nodded, “Sure.”
We slowly made our way down the block quietly. I didn’t really know what to say. It fell into another awkward beat.
"So, do you stay here by yourself?" Harry asked me.
I shook my head, “No, I stay with two friends from Uni, Elisabeth and Bryanna. We have a flat not too far from here.”
"It’s sort of weird seeing you after all of this time." Harry laughed lightly a little.
"I know what you mean."
"I always wondered what I would do if I ever saw you again."
"I’ve wondered that before too." I admitted.
"What would you have done?" Harry had stopped walking now and was starting at me waiting for my answer.
"I would apologize for everything that I put you through. It was really shitty of me and I felt really bad after I graduated."
"I didn’t want you to feel bad. You did what you thought was right at the time."
We continued walking in silence. I just didn’t know what to tell him.
"You don’t have to get all quiet on me." Harry nudged my shoulder with his own lightly as we walked.
It made me smile a little, “I’m not. I’m just thinking.”
"Don’t hurt yourself." I heard him whisper.
"Hey!" I laughed as I bumped into him. It was crazy how a small touch made my heart go crazy. Harry was my high school sweetheart, even though he wasn’t in high school when I was. Nothing was going to change the way that I felt about him. The situation that he was going through just made things a million times harder.
Harry ended up walking me to my flat after a little while. We made small talk on the way. When we made it to my building door, I turned to face him.
"I had a really nice time with you tonight, Harry."
I saw him smile a little, “I had a nice time too. I would like to do this again sometime.”
I froze. He wanted to see me again? Part of me was overjoyed, the other part of me however wasn’t. I wasn’t even supposed to be seeing Harry right now. My boss would probably kill me.
"Uh, I’m not sure that would be a good idea." I said to him.
"Is it because of the divorce?"
I nodded, “Everything is different now, Harry. You are going through a divorce and you have a son. I don’t want to get in the way of things.”
Harry took a step closer to me, “Tell me that you wouldn’t want to see me again after this and I will leave you alone.”
I tried to tell him, but I couldn’t form the words. Every part of me wanted to see him again.
He smiled a little, “I thought so.”
I rolled my eyes, “You are so full of yourself.”
"Come to my place tomorrow and I will cook you dinner."
I knew that I wasn’t going to be able to say no. Harry wouldn’t allow it and part of me wouldn’t allow it either.
"Fine, I will go." I agreed.
Harry smiled, “See you tomorrow.” I watched as Harry leaned down and kissed my cheek softly before he walked away. My knees were like jello and I felt like I was seventeen again.
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