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When I Was: Eight

Previous Chapter: http://upallnightprefs94.tumblr.com/post/82431055650/when-i-was-seven

It had been two weeks.

I haven’t talked to Liam since he left that voicemail for me. I couldn’t even look him in the eyes to be honest.

It was awkward to say the least.

We were currently leaving Belfast. We just finished four shows here and we on our way to Dublin. The show tonight was awesome. It seemed like the screams from the fans got louder and louder.

The tour was going by wonderfully, despite the Liam thing. I was enjoying playing in front of sold out crowds.

Hearing tons of fans singing along to my songs warmed my heart.

I was laying in my bunk as I was writing some song lyrics. I had some roaming through my head all day and I finally got a chance to write them down.

Just as I finished the first verse, the bus stopped abruptly. It scared me and I heard Athena yell.

I jumped out of my bunk and went to the front.

"What happened?!" I called out to Leo, my bus driver.

"I don’t know. The bus just stopped." Leo said. He started to apologize.

"It’s okay, Leo. We are all fine. That’s all that matters." I told him.

He nodded and grabbed his cell phone to call someone.

I went over to Athena, “Are you alright?”

"Yeah, I just was talking to Harry when the bus stopped." She said.

Leo called one of the other bus drivers and they were turning around to get us. Athena and I had to gather our things since we had to ride on another bus.

When a bus finally came, Athena and I said goodbye to Leo. He was going to wait for a mechanic to come along with a few other people.

We got on the other bus, and I expected it to be empty. Instead, it was the guys’ bus.

I froze as I saw Liam sitting there with Niall, Louis and Harry.

It didn’t take a genius to figure out that Zayn had to have been sleeping already.

"Hey, we heard what happened with the bus. Are you guys alright?" Harry asked us. Athena and I set our stuff down and she went to sit next to him. I knew that she was happy about this arrangement.

"Yeah, we are fine." Athena answered.

I sat down next to Niall as I powered my laptop back on.

I needed to finish this song or it will drive me crazy.

"What are you working on?"

"A song. I was in the process of writing it before the bus broke down."

"You could go to the little studio we have in the back. It’s soundproof so you won’t wake Zayn." Louis suggested.

"Thank you!" I rushed back there, glad that I didn’t have to talk to Liam at all.

The guys seemed to have everything in their little studio. Their engineer was already there to help me with my song.

I gave him the cd where I had the track and the melody already on there.

I went into the booth and put on some headphones:

"I’m falling to pieces
But I need this
Yeah, I need this
You’re my fault
My weakness
When did you turn so cold

You cut me down to the bone
Now you’re dancing
All over my soul
I’m falling to pieces
To pieces, to pieces

But I still stay cause you’re the only thing I know
So won’t you take, oh, won’t you take me home
Take me home, home, home
Take me home, home, home”

I loved the song as soon as I finished it. I couldn’t wait to perform it in front of the fans.

I went all the way to the back of the bus to start writing for another song I had in mind.

There were certain days when songs would just start spewing out of my head. I loved the whole process of writing a song.

I was in the middle of thinking of an idea, when I heard footsteps.

I looked up and Liam was there.

"Hey." He said as he stood in the doorway.


It got awkward again.

He looked down at his shoes, “Do you think we could talk for a moment?”

"Uh yeah, that’s fine."

He came and sat on the couch next to me but still kept his distance. I knew that we would have to talk eventually.

"Um, I just wanted to apologize for the voicemail I left you a couple of weeks ago. I was really plastered."

"Liam, you and I both know how you really sound when you are drunk." I laughed.

He cracked a smile, “Yeah.”

"It’s fine. We can just forget that it ever happened." I told him.

"Really?" He looked at me expecting me to yell at him or something.

I nodded, “I’m sure we have all done stuff that we wish we could just forget about.”

Liam looked down at his hands, a nervous habit, “I know I do.”

I grabbed my notebook and pencil, “Then it’s forgotten.”

It was quiet for a while before he asked, “What are you working on?”

"A new song. I’m having a little trouble with it though." I handed him my notebook and he glanced at my lyrics.

"Sing it for me. I want to hear the tune."

I cleared my throat before I began:

"Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren’t all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them”

Singing in front of Liam now, reminded me of all of the times we would sing together before.

It would be in random times at the flat that we shared. I used to be scared to sing in front of him, but I eventually got over it.

"That’s really beautiful." He breathed out.

I felt my cheeks heat up a little, “Thank you.”

"It always amazed me how you were able to right such beautiful songs." Liam confessed.

"It just hits me in random times."

Liam reached over and grabbed the pencil I had in my hands and started writing. I wanted to move over and see what he was writing, but I knew that I shouldn’t.

It hit me that I hadn’t talked to Ashton all day. I knew that the tour would be tough for our relationship. I just hoped it didn’t change everything.

After a few minutes, Liam handed me back my notebook.

I looked over the lyrics and they were amazing.

I looked up at him, “Sing it for me.”

He smiled a little, “Alright.”

As soon as the words left his mouth, I knew that this song was going to be amazing:

"Just give me a reason
Just a little bit’s enough
Just a second we’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It’s in the stars
It’s been written in the scars on our hearts
We’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again”

I sat in awe as he finished.

"Liam, that is really good." I said.

He smiled and looked down again, “I figured that could be the chorus. Maybe it could turn out to be a duet. Did you have anyone in mind that you would want to record it with?”

Now it was my turn to be nervous, “Would you mind? I mean, since you did help me with it and all. It would only be right.”

My answer seemed to surprise him.

"Yeah, I would like that actually."

It took Liam and I about an hour to finish the song, Just Give Me A Reason.

I loved it.

It was beautiful and so personal. I knew that Liam and I had a lot of stuff to talk about before we could ever be considered as friends, but I knew this was a step in the right direction.

It took us another hour to record the song and when it was all finished, it made me want to cry.

"Thank you." I told him after we heard it.

"Thank you for letting me record it with you." Liam bumped into my shoulder a little.

I was given a copy and we played it for the others.

Athena stood by me as we listened to it. She whispered to me, “I can’t believe you and him wrote that.”

I knew that Ashton was going to be pissed, but I chose not to think about that right how.

I looked up and Liam was looking over at me, “I know. I really like it though.”

"Are you going to release it?"

I nodded, “Yeah, I think I am.”

I went to the back after everyone listened to the song. I grabbed my computer and emailed the two songs I recorded to Vivian and Elianna. I always valued their opinions along with Athena’s.

It was getting late and I was getting tired. I knew I should get some sleep, but I just couldn’t for some reason.

I closed my laptop after I replied to a few fans on Twitter and then Liam walked in.

"Did you like how the song turned out?" I asked him.

He nodded, “Yeah, it’s really awesome.” He came and sat back on the sofa.

"Do you think Ashton will be upset?" He questioned.

I shrugged my shoulders, “I have no idea.”

I still hadn’t heard from him.

"You could always get someone else to sing the song with you. It wouldn’t bother me."

I shook my head, “No, it sounds amazing. I wouldn’t want to change it.”

"I just don’t want Ashton to be upset. I know I would if—" he stopped.

"If things were how they used to be?" I finished.

Liam nodded but didn’t look at me, “Yeah, if they were.”

It got awkward all over again. I knew at that moment that Liam still had feelings for me. All I could think about was Ashton.

I honestly didn’t know what time I fell asleep. I just remember waking up as the bus went over a pothole or something.

I wasn’t in my bunk. I was still in the back.

I felt someone’s arms tighten around me and they weren’t my boyfriend’s arms.

Songs in this chapter: -Take Me Home by Cash Cash -Just Give Me A Reason by P!nk

*Let me know what you guys think!

14 hours ago
Anonymous asked: Will you be updating When I Was in the near future? :)


I’m hoping to have it done before I go to work!! I’m gonna try really hard to finish it so I can upload it tonight :) xx

19 hours ago
Anonymous asked: Have you read any good fanfictions lately? I'm sure none of them are as good as yours. You are an amazing writer!


Thank you!! :) and I’m obsessed with the after series. I’m sad it’s going to end soon. I just started reading camouflage by lolteenager on wattpad. I also like my boss’s son and maid for him on wattpad too :) xx

19 hours ago
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Thank you!! :) xx

1 day ago

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2 days ago

Forbidden: Eighteen

Previous Chapter: http://upallnightprefs94.tumblr.com/post/82059715749/forbidden-seventeen

I froze as I read the text my mom sent me. How had she found out?

I got out of Harry’s bed and went into the living room. I heard him call out for me, but I ignored it.

I needed to call my mom. I was trying not to freak out, but it was so hard not to.

"Hello?" She answered.

"Mom, what are you talking about in that text?" I asked her.

"I heard from Peyton’s mom today at lunch that you have been seeing Liam! Why didn’t you tell me anything?" She asked me.

"I was uh— I didn’t know how you guys would take it." I lied.

"Liam seems like a nice guy. Sure, he is a little older, but so was your father when we started dating." My mom said.

I was super surprised at how she was acting. Sure, I wasn’t really dating Liam, but I knew that things would be different if she knew about Harry.

He was my teacher, afterall.

"I think it would be nice to have Liam over for dinner soon." She suggested to my surprise.

"Uh yeah, I’ll see when he is free." I said.

"Okay, sweetie. I have to go. My client just walked in. See you later." My mom told me before she hung up.

I was still in disbelief.

I turned around and headed back into Harry’s room. He was sitting on the bed.

"What happened?" Harry asked me as I got back into bed. He was leaning against the headboard and I sat Indian style facing him.

"My mom heard from Peyton’s mom that I’m dating Liam." I told him.


I nodded, “The most surprising thing of all was that she was okay with it!”

Harry looked down at his hands, “Really?”

"She even wants to have him over for dinner." I laughed.

Harry got out of bed and went over to his balcony door. He looked outside with his hands on his hips.

"Harry?" I went over to the edge of the bed.

"I wish that could be me." I heard him mumble.

I stood up but didn’t go near him, “What?”

"I wish that I could be the one they knew about." Harry confessed still not looking at me.

"I know, Harry. I do too."

"Have you ever thought about if we had a future together?" He finally turned to look at me. I didn’t like the tone in his voice.

The turn in our conversation was a little frightening.

"I have actually." I took a step towards him.

"And?" He pressed on.

"And I know that I love you more than I ever thought I would. It’s impossible for me to imagine my future without you, Harry." I confessed.

Harry stepped up to me and placed his hands on my shoulders, “Do you really mean that?”

I nodded, “I love you, Harry. This whole fake dating Liam thing will work out. It’ll get my parents off my back. I won’t actually have to be seen with him.”

Harry leaned down and pressed his lips against mine, “I love you, (y/n). I just want to be the type of boyfriend that you deserve.”

I cupped his cheek with my hand, “You already are.”

He smiled a little, “I’m just glad that you stayed with me through all of the drama. I’m so thankful to have an amazing girl like you.”

Harry kissed me again as he pulled me closer to his chest.

I tugged at his curls a little causing him to moan. He lifted me up and brought us back over to the bed.

He put me down on the bed.

"I wish it could be like this all the time." He whispered as our kiss ended.

"You’ve been hinting lately about me living with you." I pointed out as I laid back.

He smiled, “That’s because I want you to.”

It shocked me a little, “Really?”

Harry pressed his lips against my jaw lightly, “I would like it very much so if you did.”

"Harry, you know that is impossible right now." I tried to reason with him. I was getting distracted by his lips on my skin.

"I know, babe. I mean that as soon as we can, I want you to live with me." Harry cupped my cheek with his hand and I wrapped my legs around his waist.

"I would love too." I smiled.

He lifted me back up and spun me around.

"You’ve made me the happiest man on the planet!" Harry exclaimed.

I kissed his neck softly, “I love you.”

"I love you more."

When I got home after spending the afternoon wrapped in Harry’s arms, I was a little worried.

I would have to keep lying to my parents and my best friend for the next few months.

I honestly couldn’t wait to graduate and be able to be seen with Harry in public.

"(Y/n)? Is that you?" My mom called out.

I put my backpack on the floor, “Yes.”

I went into the kitchen and she was in there making dinner. I smelled Italian food.

"How was your day, honey?" She asked as I sat at the table.

"It was okay. How was yours?"

"It was fine until I talked to Peyton’s mom. I wish you would’ve told me that you were seeing someone. You know better than to keep things from me." Mom said.

I felt the guilt. It was like a constant ache in my chest.

"I know and I’m sorry."

"Now, tell me everything about you and Liam." My mom said. I knew on the inside she was just like a teenage girl ready to gush about boys.

I couldn’t help but laugh, “There isn’t much to tell. I ran into him at the country club and we had lunch. He is really sweet and I think I like him a lot.”

I knew that I was really talking about Harry.

"I’m glad for you sweetie. He is older, so you always have to be cautious about certain things." Mom warned me.

I laughed, “Trust me. That isn’t an issue with me and Liam.”

If only she knew the truth.

*I feel like I’m loosing so many followers because my writing isn’t as good as it used to be. It sucks seeing the numbers dwindle down on followers and people who like my stories :/ -loveyouall
2 days ago
Anonymous asked: Stars above is such a great story!!!!


Thank you so much!! :) xx

2 days ago
Anonymous asked: Please update either The Escort or Forbidden soon! I am innnnn LOVE with both of those stories (And all the others too, but those are my faves).


Thank you! Forbidden will be updated soon! :) xx

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